“I’ve learned that waiting is the most difficult bit, and I want to get used to the feeling, knowing that you’re with me, even when you’re not by my side.”
Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes

Friday, February 17, 2012

Fake Text and Party for ONE! :D

Alright so this week has literally felt like it's flown by! I forget what day of the week it is anymore and am just like "It's THURSDAY?!" Crap! I am happy time is going by so quickly but it also is crazy how it feels like it's going by so fast. Keeping busy all the time really does help when you're waiting!

Tonight I definitely was just wanting to have fun. I had to close at Sonic so I got off at 11:30 ish and when I was driving home I was singing SO loud and obnoxiously. THEN!! Party Rock Anthem came on. UH OH!! I definitely broke out the driving dance moves!!! :) Loved it! I had so much fun... all by myself!!! :) I am definitely going to dance and sing to myself more often! :) 

I don't have anything really terribly new to talk about. It hasn't been too long since I last posted. :) But I just miss Mark. The other night I started having doubts of if he really did love me like he said he did. If you're waiting for your missionary I am sure you know what I am talking about! (And if you haven't experienced these yet you will eventually...) But then a good friend reminded me, "He's done a lot for you. Right now? He is on a mission so y'all can spend eternity together so happily. I am positive he respects you more now that he is on his mission. That's probably why he said he's turning into the man you need or deserve." After she reminded me of that I was like, "How could I forget?!" In one of his letters he told me he had good news and bad news. He told me the bad news and then said, "The good news is I am turning more into the man who is going to be your future husband." :) How could you not smile reading that?! I just started tearing up when he said that. :) I don't understand how he does it. How he can make me feel SO much better about myself and make me feel whole being a crap load of distance away? He has like magical powers I think. :)

Haha so for some reason I was thinking about the day he went to the MTC. He had texted me on his drive to the MTC saying that his cousins would have his phone and might try texting me. I didn't really think they would try texting me, but I was all, "Oh okay thanks for warning me. :)" After Mark told me he loved me and we said "I'll see you laters" I sent a text to his cousin we call Nubbs to see if he had left yet. Nubbs and I texted a little and then he said, "We just got a call from Mark." I was like WHAT? Not uh. And then I got a text from Mark's phone saying, "Hey I'm not going anymore. I just want to go get married! Cause I really don't want to loose you! I love you!" I was thinking Haha I wish my boyfriend was that much of a hopeless romantic. I was feeling like I wished he was for real and then I was glad I knew it was fake cause I knew a mission was what was best for both of us. I just texted back and said Haha nice try. Mark doesn't use that many exclamation points! Then they said oh darn well we had to tease ya some how! :) It definitely made me smile that they care enough to tease me lol. I love Mark's family. They are seriously like my family and I feel like I fit in really well there too. :)

I think what these past few days have taught me was even though I don't have Mark around me all the time and even though I am alone a lot more often then usual, I can still have fun and he still makes me feel loved. :) He makes me feel important and I think that's definitely a wonderful quality he has. :) I love him and miss him, but I am one day closer! :)

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