“I’ve learned that waiting is the most difficult bit, and I want to get used to the feeling, knowing that you’re with me, even when you’re not by my side.”
― Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes
― Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes
Monday, March 19, 2012
The Finish Line!
He let me know today that he is going to be flying home on January 16, 2014! :) Even though that's 5 days past 2 years, I am just really glad that I know what day he will be home! :) Love him! Can't wait! :)
Testimony Builders
I got to email Mark today! :) He helped me notice the power of prayer. :) I let him know how many blessings I feel like I have seen since he has been on his mission and this is what he had to say:
"You
keep talking about how everything is going amazing and right in your
life and just how blessings are pouring out to you.....I've been praying
every single morning and night that you will receive blessings for my
service and that you will be comforted...and it's happening!!! Thanks
for telling me babe :) It really really boosted my testimony of prayer
:) I just wanted to let you know that :) "
"You
keep talking about how everything is going amazing and right in your
life and just how blessings are pouring out to you.....I've been praying
every single morning and night that you will receive blessings for my
service and that you will be comforted...and it's happening!!! Thanks
for telling me babe :) It really really boosted my testimony of prayer
:) I just wanted to let you know that :) "
I love how he is on his mission and helping me find and strengthen my testimony. Another testimony builder this week was Sunday my Relief Society lesson went really well. That's the first time I have been asked to give a lesson and I was nervous but it went really well. :) I think I might even be crazy enough to do it again!
So I am going to need prayer this week a lot because today I found out that I didn't get into a program that would have really helped with my expenses while going to Dixie State. I am so disappointed in myself, but not really. I just figure I wasn't what they wanted and I don't know what they wanted then. But I am more upset because Mark isn't here to listen to me and to comfort me. That's the hardest part of this waiting thing. When I find things out like this I just want to talk to him, but I can't. He used to make me feel so much better about everything. He would have reassured me that nothing is wrong with me and that he still loves me. I just need to always remember that. I just need to now figure something else out for school. I am quite nervous because I don't know what it is, but I hope that the Lord will guide me through this.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
New Car
Today has been super crazy! I BOUGHT A CAR!! I was flipping out! Before Mark left he told me some car types that I should keep an eye out for. Ones that get good gas mileage and are reliable and stuff. :) So I have been looking for a good car that isn't too expensive and stuff that I would be able to take to college and my step-dad has been taking me to car lots. I found this inexpensive one that was being sold by a personal owner and we test drove it and oh man.. We went to shift and the whole gear shift just popped off, yet it still worked when you put it back on, the seat was broken. etc. SO needless to say I didn't get it. :) But I went to a dealership for used cars today and we looked at this Corolla. This was one car Mark said I should get or at least consider and it is in really nice condition. A lot of new features and we got him down from $4,995 to $3,500. :) I am stoked! I get to take it on my first long Utah drive tomorrow.
It's weird to have your own car. I have always had to figure out car schedules with my family and what car goes where, but now I will always have a car. :) Really nice! :) Let's just hope that I don't break down in the middle of nowhere! :) Nah I think I will be okay. :)
I am really kinda nervous about going to Utah tomorrow. I mean, not totally scared that I might pee myself, but just nervous. Like little butterflies. :) I am excited to meet some of the MG's there though! SUPER stoked for Denny's. :) I need to go find my camera so I can tape some of it and make a video! That's a good idea! :) Alright so now I have to go to bed so I can find all my stuff and get to work on time early tomorrow! :)
One memory I remembered the other night of Mark and I was just on Sundays we would have our nap. :) And one Sunday we were both just out cold until his mom came in to wake us up to go to the other ward. :) I loved waking up next to him. :) I can't wait until that's an everyday experience. :) I love him so much and I miss him like heck! But I'm doing this waiting thing! I'm gonna show it who is boss. ;)
It's weird to have your own car. I have always had to figure out car schedules with my family and what car goes where, but now I will always have a car. :) Really nice! :) Let's just hope that I don't break down in the middle of nowhere! :) Nah I think I will be okay. :)
I am really kinda nervous about going to Utah tomorrow. I mean, not totally scared that I might pee myself, but just nervous. Like little butterflies. :) I am excited to meet some of the MG's there though! SUPER stoked for Denny's. :) I need to go find my camera so I can tape some of it and make a video! That's a good idea! :) Alright so now I have to go to bed so I can find all my stuff and get to work on time early tomorrow! :)
One memory I remembered the other night of Mark and I was just on Sundays we would have our nap. :) And one Sunday we were both just out cold until his mom came in to wake us up to go to the other ward. :) I loved waking up next to him. :) I can't wait until that's an everyday experience. :) I love him so much and I miss him like heck! But I'm doing this waiting thing! I'm gonna show it who is boss. ;)
2 Months Vlog!
Alright I know I'm two days late.... again this month. :) But I made a 2 month video! :) Here it is! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lspPsQ-LTwY&context=C479a051ADvjVQa1PpcFP_AbemskFl22upIKHilzJZMvCuafQFeBI=
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Waiting for a Missionary Survival Guide :)
Another YouTube Video! :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltexsbipETs&feature=plcp&context=C4e2ef3aVDvjVQa1PpcFP_AbemskFl25I4ju6tMKaygxQI8jTZAIg%3D
Smile!
Today really wasn't that bad. I went to work and all that normal junk. I got a phone call saying that I have moved on in the application process of getting a really good scholarship and I am super excited about that! I feel like since Mark has left, even though I don't get to have him to talk to when I get stressed out, that I have been really blessed. I am starting to see all the ways I am getting blessings from my Heavenly Father and I cannot even count them! I love that! :) I sat down to write Mark last night and I wrote for an hour and had written 3 pages front and back and then just the front of the fourth page. SHOOT! I didn't think I could fill up that much space with what had happened these past few days I haven't written him, but I am happy that I did. :) It feels good knowing I can still tell him everything. :)
In three days he will have been gone for 2 months! :) That's about how long I had waited for my first missionary by the time I met Mark. I'm gonna show him that he's different than the first one. :) He's worth the wait! :)
I have the interview for my scholarship thing on Friday morning next week and I am kinda nervous. But I went online to my waiting for missionary pages to see if anyone wanted to meet up. Thursday when I get into St. George I plan on meeting up with two or three of the girls that are also waiting for their missionaries. :) I am pretty excited, nervous because I'm such a goober! But excited because I haven't known any other missionary girlfriend. :) It's nice to know you're not alone in what you're going through. :) Even Mark isn't alone. His companion has to leave his girlfriend behind too. He says it's nice to have someone who knows exactly what you're going through. :) Apparently his companion told him he can tell when Mark is thinking about me because he is just sitting there with a big smile on his face. :) That makes me happy that I still make him happy all the way across the United States! :) I love him a lot! :)
In three days he will have been gone for 2 months! :) That's about how long I had waited for my first missionary by the time I met Mark. I'm gonna show him that he's different than the first one. :) He's worth the wait! :)
I have the interview for my scholarship thing on Friday morning next week and I am kinda nervous. But I went online to my waiting for missionary pages to see if anyone wanted to meet up. Thursday when I get into St. George I plan on meeting up with two or three of the girls that are also waiting for their missionaries. :) I am pretty excited, nervous because I'm such a goober! But excited because I haven't known any other missionary girlfriend. :) It's nice to know you're not alone in what you're going through. :) Even Mark isn't alone. His companion has to leave his girlfriend behind too. He says it's nice to have someone who knows exactly what you're going through. :) Apparently his companion told him he can tell when Mark is thinking about me because he is just sitting there with a big smile on his face. :) That makes me happy that I still make him happy all the way across the United States! :) I love him a lot! :)
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Your Life Touched Mine
Yay! It's finally March! :) Thank goodness! I am getting closer to the time when I will be moving off to college and I am super excited! I actually met a girl who is waiting for her missionary who is also going to Dixie! She and I started talking about it and she applied to the same apartment complex. She requested me to be her roommate so I am super excited about that! :) She is really cool and I am going to LOVE having her as a roommate. She is in to running marathons and eating right, which I have been needing to do for quite some time now. But I have always wanted to run a marathon so she's going to help me be able to! :) And I'm gonna teach her basketball in return lol. But ever since she told me she runs a lot and eats right I have been starting to run 2 miles a day. It's been three days now and I have run each day! :) I am doing pretty good if you ask me and I hope I keep it up long term! I wanna look GOOD when Mark gets back. :) That's the goal! :)
I got an amazing letter/card today from him! :) It was so adorable that I started cry laughing. NOW If you have NEVER heard of cry laughing, it's a weird sensation. Kinda like hiccuping and sneezing at the same time. I was laughing because what he said was just so absolutely perfect. :) And crying because I miss him a lot. He let me know that his love has only grown stronger and that I don't need to worry about losing him. :) I feel like his letters might be more mushy than mine! :) I love it though. :) It's definitely what I need right now. :) I don't know how he does it. :) He just makes me keep falling in love with him over and over. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS CLICHE!! :) But honestly... Gah! He makes me SO happy and he and I have always been long distance. It's been over a year and 7 months long distance and I am happier than I was with someone in the same town. Crazy right?
I don't have a story to share, but I just want to write down the poem that was in the card he sent me. :)
Your Life Touched Mine
Something very special
Which I cannot define,
Happened to me one day,
When your life touched mine.
The touching of our lives,
Especially your touching me,
Made me a better person,
Never the same to be.
Bright memories of that day,
Now cling without my clutching,
Because our paths still cross
And our souls are touching.
... Then on the back it says, "I have never stopped thanking God for you... And he had circled that and said, "Hey that's what I do! :) I saw this and thought of you so I got it. I LOVE YOU!!! XOXO." :)
That made me start crying. I love him! :) Can't wait to see him again! :)
I got an amazing letter/card today from him! :) It was so adorable that I started cry laughing. NOW If you have NEVER heard of cry laughing, it's a weird sensation. Kinda like hiccuping and sneezing at the same time. I was laughing because what he said was just so absolutely perfect. :) And crying because I miss him a lot. He let me know that his love has only grown stronger and that I don't need to worry about losing him. :) I feel like his letters might be more mushy than mine! :) I love it though. :) It's definitely what I need right now. :) I don't know how he does it. :) He just makes me keep falling in love with him over and over. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS CLICHE!! :) But honestly... Gah! He makes me SO happy and he and I have always been long distance. It's been over a year and 7 months long distance and I am happier than I was with someone in the same town. Crazy right?
I don't have a story to share, but I just want to write down the poem that was in the card he sent me. :)
Your Life Touched Mine
Something very special
Which I cannot define,
Happened to me one day,
When your life touched mine.
The touching of our lives,
Especially your touching me,
Made me a better person,
Never the same to be.
Bright memories of that day,
Now cling without my clutching,
Because our paths still cross
And our souls are touching.
... Then on the back it says, "I have never stopped thanking God for you... And he had circled that and said, "Hey that's what I do! :) I saw this and thought of you so I got it. I LOVE YOU!!! XOXO." :)
That made me start crying. I love him! :) Can't wait to see him again! :)
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