Months 17 and 18 Down, 6 to go!

I haven't updated about life in so long and I definitely think that today is a good day to do it! :)

Waiting has been hard. Struggling is only beginning to describe it. For a while doubt has struck me and feeling like I'm not good enough to have an RM for a boyfriend, much less a husband. I think this was Satan's way to make me feel bad about myself and try to make me give up. It was so difficult to get through this last month I can't even describe it, but I've made it through it. :) We aren't out of the woods yet, but I'm feeling a lot better about life than I did before.

We have been apart for so long it's weird to look at pictures and think, "That's the guy that loves me and wants to marry me." After so long I feel alone in life, like I don't have a boyfriend, but I know I do. Definitely the hardest part is to remember why I am waiting. Why this is all worth it. I am so glad that in the beginning I wrote a lot of Mark and my experiences together. I am also really glad that I've gotten to know his family so well, I honestly couldn't see myself without his family.

I got a package from Mark yesterday! :) My first package in a while, but my first letter too! :) I was so excited! In the letter he was talking about how his mission is tough right now and I think it's so crazy that he and I go through tough times at the same time. This just reminds me that we need to be there for each other and that I especially need to continue to life Mark up and support him on his mission. I am growing my testimony each day. I am reading my scriptures so that when he needs some strength it doesn't just come from me, but from Heavenly Father too. :)

I was only a little excited. ;)

Everything that was in my package. :) Gotta love it!

I'm excited to get to date him when he comes home. :) I always wanted to go on dates with someone, I never really have gone on an official date haha. I know that's kind of weird, but I really haven't! So I have decided that I can ask Mark on dates when he gets home and make them fun and spontaneous. :) At night I like sitting in bed and thinking about what I can do to surprise him and just have fun. :) It's going to be awesome! :) Getting to know him again I think is going to be a lot of fun. :) It's just going to remind me how we fell in love to begin with and I get to fall in love with him all over again. :) We aren't perfect people, but together we can strive to be perfect people with Christ.

I don't know if I explained this on here yet, haha but I don't know the exact date when Mark will come home. He wants to surprise me. I think this is adorable and I don't mind because I don't want to know what that dreaded week before he comes home feels like haha. I'll just be going about life as normal and BAM my boyfriend is home. It's gonna be awesome!!!!! I have 168 days until January 11th. :)

My advice to anyone this week is to have faith, even if your relationship seems to be slipping from you. It's not that he doesn't love you anymore, it's just that he is gone on a mission focusing on Christ and the gospel. Keep your faith that our Heavenly Father wouldn't have you wait in vain, that something good will come out of all of this. :) I love this gospel and I know that in the end, everything will be okay. :)

As for life in general this summer has been awesome! I went to visit my dad in Tennessee, where we went to the lake pretty much every day. :) It was great to be with family and going out to have fun all the time. I move back to St. George next week! And then after the school semester Mark will be home! I'm looking for a job right now and if any one reading this knows of one there let me know! That would be AMAZING! I have two friends getting married too! Next weekend and then the weekend after that. I am excited for them, but I keep thinking about that day that Mark and I will be sealed together forever. :) I can't wait! Life is good and it can only go uphill from here! :)

Leaving TN, It was a sad day.

At the firing range!

DQ. It's a family weakness. ;)

Late night Call of Duty. What up?!

Family photo. :)

Super Easy Yogurt Pie

This yogurt pie is super easy but my family loves it! :)

I just take a container of strawberry yogurt, one container of cool whip and a graham cracker crust. Mix the two together and then just put it in the graham cracker crust. Then just refrigerate it. :) That's it! :) It should be illegal with how easy and awesome this is. :)

Chinese Dumplings and Chow Mein

One hobby that I told Mark I was going to do while he was gone was learn how to cook like a beast! So that's what I have been doing and I feel like I should throw some of my recipes up here in case anyone wants to try them--plus a handy way for me to keep them all in the same place. :)

Tonight I made Chinese Dumplings and Chow Mein. I have wanted to perfect this recipe for some time and I think tonight I definitely got close! :) I wanted to write down what I put in it before it got too late.

I used pork for the dumplings, but you can use chicken or beef. With trial and error I like it shredded better or ground. I've tried using chunks but they don't hold the flavor as well. Meat should be cooked at least part of the way.

All these measurements are guesses, so don't take them too literally!

Dumplings

• 1/4 cup soy sauce
• 1/4 cup terriyaki sauce
• 1/8 cup (or less) of lemon juice and sprinkle enough powdered ginger in until you start seeing it not dissolve 
• Garlic salt or powder
• black pepper
• chopped carrots (can put anything just for a crunch i.e. celery, water chestnuts)
• onions (if you use dehydrated onions put a little lemon juice and water in and microwave it just to re-hydrate them) 

Take the shredded meat and mix everything into it. Put that in the refrigerator to let sit and "talk" to each other. haha. When you're ready to fill the dumplings just take a small spoonful-- around a teaspoon-- in the middle. With some water wet two edges and fold it over in half so it looks like a triangle. Make sure that the edges get sealed so they don't break open when cooking. Then you can take the two edges and pinch them together, it makes them look pretty. ;) When cooking, make sure they don't touch. You can boil them until you can see the middle through the noodle. Bake at 350 for about 10 minutes. Grease the baking sheet so they don't stick and put water on top of every dumpling. (I put water on about every 5 minutes). You should see some of the noodle get golden brown--then they are done! Steaming-- you can steam them for about 5 minutes each. They are done when you can see the middle through the noodle. 

Dumplings before I baked them.

Chow Mein

I actually just took some chicken top ramen, I'm sure any kind would work just fine this is just all we had.

• 3 packages Chicken Top Ramen
• 4 cups water
• 1/4 cup soy sauce
• 1/4 cup terriyaki sauce
• garlic salt
• bean sprouts

Bottom left- Steamed dumplings, the others are baked

Boil the packages of flavoring and all the seasonings and sauces in a small pot. Break the top ramen noodles in half and put them in the boiling water. Boil them uncovered until almost all the sauce is gone. The ramen turns to a brownish color when the noodles get soft and tender. That's when you know it is soft enough. At that point put in a can of bean sprouts. (Shredded carrots, cabbage or something else you like in chow mein would also be pretty good in it too. Add whatever you want! :) )

16 Month Mark

I have been so busy I forgot to write!

School is finally out and I am so glad! I was so done with that semester from the beginning haha. All I have left in the wait is the summer and then ONE more school semester! ONE! Holy shnikes! I can't even believe it one more semester of school and he will be home. :)

Since school has been out I finished working at Sonic, I'm not going back there again. I am excited that I don't have a specific work schedule anymore. The summer is going to be fun. :)

I got to visit my sister in Provo for a week! :) I was so excited to see her and spend so much time with her. I'd really missed having her around.

I am now at home, helping out my family and enjoying being home.

I hope time keeps on going fast. :) I will soon have my boyfriend back. :) I hope that everything is good when he comes home. I get worried that we won't get along as well as I hope or that we won't work out. But I can't worry too much about that. I just need to have faith that Heavenly Father knows what he is doing. :) I do love Mark, I just hope that he is doing okay.

14 &15 Months. Check!

I haven't written in so long! I suck! What have I been doing the past 2 months? Welll! I'll just show you! :D 

I WENT SKYDIVING! :D Definitely something I would recommend and TOTALLY do again! :)
Other than that though I have been going to school and working and stuff. I am moving home for the summer to spend time with my family before Mark and I get married next summer. :) I am really spending time with his family and getting to know them a lot better too. :) I am loving every day and it's crazy how much faster time seems to be going when I am not thinking about it all the time! I am getting more excited and nervous for the day he comes home everyday! I have been thinking about it a lot more lately haha. :) But that's still 9 months off!

13 Months DOWN! :D

This month I think just the hardest part was time seemed to go by so slowly! I don't know why, but it just did.

I have been thinking a lot about how I was feeling this time last year and this time last year I THOUGHT time would go by so slowly, but it went by super quick and NOW it's going by slow haha. Weird right? I thought so. :)

So I have been trying different methods of waiting, thinking about him a lot or trying to not think about him. Some girls I think prefer one over the other and I think I definitely prefer reminiscing or writing him almost everyday. I feel like it makes time go by faster, well better I guess. I like it a lot better to think about him and how he and I were. Now don't get me wrong I ALWAYS thought about him. Just some girls don't write as often as I do and I for some reason didn't write as often for a couple weeks and I just didn't like it! Now that I'm writing as fast as I used to I really feel like I am happier. :) I love writing him and I don't like feeling like he won't hear from me because I am being lazy. I don't know, it's kind of a weird thought and feeling haha.

So Valentine's Day is tomorrow! The LAST Valentine's I'll have to spend alone! :) Yayyyy! I am So excited to say that. :) I don't mind being alone on Valentine's actually, I think it really bothers some people, but I'm like "Whatever, it's just another day." haha. Yeah.

Life has been crazy! My roommate is getting married! This is SO hard for me because she's my best friend here at college and it sucks kind of. Like I'm super happy for her, but it sucks that she won't be my roommate anymore... :( I'll have to blog about it haha. But I love her so much and I am so excited for her! :)

Mark is still on his mission and is loving it. :) He is transforming into a different person, a very good person though. :) He's telling me about attributes he's picked up and I'm like "Sweet! This is going to be awesome!" This just emphasizes the whole getting to know him again when he comes home. I feel like I know him, because I do-- I know his wants, goals and ambitions in life. I just have to get to know the more refined him, which I am so excited to do! :)

Only 11 months left! :D Yay! :)

One Year Done!

Oh my goodness I have finally hit the half way point! :D What the what?!

The last year has been such a roller coaster! I can't even believe everything that's happened. I miss him, yes but after I think the first six months I got used to the fact that he was gone and I couldn't talk to him everyday. Don't get me wrong, I still get upset every now and then about him being gone. I still cry every once in a while, but I'm trying to keep myself occupied and it doesn't upset me that much anymore. I still miss him a lot though!

I remember since the first day he left I was always thinking "I cannot wait until I can say that this day last year I wasn't with Mark so that means he is coming home soon." AND NOW I CAN SAY THAT! It's crazy!

Not going to lie, the last month went SLOWWWWW! I was talking to Jayda just being like "Holy cow these last few days couldn't have gone any slower!" She totally agreed with me haha, but I be that's what it will be like when he is about to come home next year. :) Crazy to think that this time next year he and I will almost be together (his transfers end on the 15th).

Today, the 14th, though is our 2 and a half year anniversary. :)

Time is so crazy and really seems like it's going slow but in the grand scheme of things it goes fast. I remember not being able to wait to move out of home and how I was thinking time would go so slow with Mark being gone. Now I'm like WOW! it's really been THAT long?!

Christmas was great too! :D I got to Skype with him. :) It was SO good to hear him and see him. :) 

Life is way good though! I am finally all settled in to St. George and am making a lot of friends, so they keep me entertained while I'm waiting for Mark to get back. :) I haven't gotten a letter in a few weeks, but I'm kinda getting used to it. I just remember that if he is either too tired or too busy to write me, either one is okay with me because that means he's working hard and doing his job instead of being worried about me or anything like that. I just keep in my mind that he is giving these two years to the Lord and when he is done with that he will be here with me, where we can talk everyday and stuff. :)

I've really been thinking about the past year, how I have grown and how he has grown. We both have grown up and become more mature I feel, for sure. I definitely have become more independent, I even consider myself a full blown adult... weird. He has just become so close to our Heavenly Father and Christ and it has changed him into something better than he ever has been. :) Whenever I talk to him about stuff going on here at home he will answer with some gospel things like scriptures or stuff and I love that! :) It just shows me that he is working and remembering and learning and doing amazing. :)

The past year has been difficult, but it's definitely been worth it. We have become better people and are more prepared for what life has to bring us when he does get home. I can't imagine what more we'll learn the next year, but I'm set and ready for the ride! :) 12 more months! :D