5 Month Vlog!

FULL update of what has happened the past five months and how I feel about it? I am SUPER excited about it actually being 5 months since he has gone. I can't believe how fast time really is going. Next thing I know I'm going to be at six months! I NEVER thought I'd get there or see that day! BUT it's coming and it's coming fast! :D That's super encouraging for me! :)

I think back to the days when I didn't think I'd ever wait for a missionary again or be waiting for Mark. Life has changed SO much for the better and I can't even believe it. :) Our relationship is SO much stronger and very much relies on the Lord and what he wants for us and our future family. :) The changes that have happened have ALL been revolved around what our Heavenly Father wants and I can see how these qualities we are both making in ourselves are VITAL for our relationship and one day our family. :)

This time being apart has strengthened our relationship tremendously. I can't even believe how much closer we have come and it's nice to see that he and I aren't growing apart, but closer together. :) TODAY! The 14th of June is actually our 1 year and 11 month anniversary! :) I still love him with all my heart and I am so glad that I started dating him a year and eleven months ago. :) Life is good! SO SO GOOD!

In my video I decided to put a "secret message" that I don't think is SUPER secret, but if you don't pay attention to the ending you will miss it. :) If you haven't watched it yet, go ahead and watch it now and see if you can find it! (The message is also in the description of my video) but I want everyone to get my message so I'm going to type it out so it makes sense (some parts don't totally make sense in the video). :)

MY SECRETish MESSAGE!

How I feel about waiting for a missionary:
CAN'T TOUCH THIS!

If you're waiting for a missionary:
STOP! There's no need to feel down. I said young man (or woman) get yourself off the ground, cause you're in a new town (or place of life) there's no need to be unhappy!
Cause these two years are a "thriller" and will go by so fast like "grease lightning".
When you're done waiting it will make you feel so good! Like ice ice baby! SO JUMP AROUND!

I get knocked down by other people, but I get up again! DON'T ever let anyone keep you down!

What is love? Don't hurt them! (Even if they're from Cotton eyed Joe? :) ) It aint no lie baby, don't say bye bye bye, even when it does get tough.
It might sound crazy but when you're having a hard time just shake it, shake it, shake it and get that dirt off your shoulder!
And in two years you will say "Let's get out of here!" BYE BYE BYE Waiting! :D

Here's to the next 19 months! Every day is one day closer! :D

Sunshine Package!

I sent Mark a surprise package! :D It was a sunshine package. :) He said he really like it. OH and here is a picture of what I put on the RM 601 application I talk a bit about. He apparently laughed really hard and showed a lot of people. :)

What Reminds Me Why I'm Waiting :)

I finally got a good camera! :D YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! But I wanted to share good pictures of my ring and the plaque thing Mark left me. :) I love them both and I just want to show you good pictures of it and here we go! :)

This is on my Mark and Jennica pillow case. :)

IBS?

I know it's super late/early but I just wanted to post a little bit. Not much has happened since I last posted about stuff actually happening. I was just watching some of the videos that I have made since Mark left almost 5 months ago and my first thought "What will Mark think when he sees these?!" Haha. I told him that he will make fun of me and all he said to that was he will make fun of me out of love. :) Haha.

I feel like I have just been numb lately. Like a lot of people call it Imaginary Boyfriend Syndrome (IBS) and I think that's what I have had lately. Where I have felt like Mark is just an awesome guy I made up to tell other people that I have a boyfriend and to keep all the guys away from me. But tonight watching our Mother's Day call it just hit me that he is real. :) Tangible. He was with me a little over 5 months ago! Crazy right?! :) I just wanted to post saying that I still love him more than anything. He is my boyfriend. He is just as real as ever. :) AND He is absolutely everything I have wanted and is turning into something better. :) The Lord is molding my best friend into my husband and eternal companion. :)

Missionaries and Girlfriends

Question: Is it good for a fellow to leave a girl behind?
Answer: Is it good for the sun to shine?

Have you ever heard of a mission call telling all missionaries to get rid of all girlfriends? Do you think that you could be a better missionary if she were there to help you. I think you could. Most of my best missionaries during the three years that I served left a girl behind. You notice that I said GIRL not GIRLS. There isn't time for more than one.

Of course the first duty i sto the Lord's work, which you have been called to do, second is to your family, and third is to the girlfriend. This you should always remember.

I always interviewed all missionaries as they entered the field and one of the questions i asked was, "Do you have a girlfriend at home?" If the answer was yes, I would say, "Can I have her name and address, and would it be alright if I wrote her a letter?"

Of course this would scare the poor fellow to death -- then I would bring the color back to his face by telling him I only wanted to write her a letter and tell her how lucky she was to have the opportunity to share this mission for the next 24 months with one of the Lord's chosen servants. If she is faithful, her testimony would become stronger in the gospel because of it... along with a little more advice that I will touch on later.

Young men, do not ask a returned missionary for advice on this subject, for if he has been "jilted" should we say he's giving out poor advice. Pray about this together and if you feel that you can do a better job then go ahead: there's nothing wrong with it. It is better to have support then got out there wishing that you had it. This is more frustrating than worrying about a "Dear John" and believe me, there won't be one of those if it's right in the beginning. The Lord always answers prayers to those who honor Him.

Have an understanding with your parents so they can encourage her and make your girl happy by showing they have faith in her and lover her. Let her parents know your plans and in most cases they will stand by her when she gets lonely. If you show them respect, as well as the girl, they will be behind you all the way.

Write her once a week or more. You can almost always write two letters a week on P-Days. There is plenty of time if they're not books. Tell her about your mission and experiences, let her live your mission with you through your letters, and send her a snapshot once in a while. Yes, you could let her make a scrapbook for you. Mom is not going to have time and your girlfriend would love that.

Remember that behind every successful man there is a good woman. So why shouldn't it be good to leave a girlfriend behind if you feel that she is special? Forget that old story 24 months is a long time. I have known girls to wait two or three years. Also forget the story that you will change a lot. You will only if you make yourself scarce in letters, etc. You will only change in the fact that you will be more mature and have a greater testimony and mind.

Now girls, make sure that you do things that will help you grow along with the missionary. Study the gospel; stay active in the church, pray often -- morning, noon, and night. Watch out for those lonely returned jilted missionaries. You're not in a hurry to get married. Write happy letters every week. Let him know that you still care. He will be looking for those letters if he is really busy during the week and on P-Days.

Yes you could send him a snapshot of yourself. He would love that. So what if you don't take good pictures -- anything will look good to him. You will be busy getting the education you need, working in and out of the church, learning to sew and all those lovely things, learning to cook fancy things, but most of all, just learning the basics. If the occasion arises and you feel as if you want to accept a date now and then, it's okay but again... BEWARE of those jilted returned missionaries. They are dynamite. Stay close to your parents.

Oh yes, there isn't any harm in leaving a girlfriend at home, if you're both determined to fulfill the mission together. It will not be the big job you think, but the happiest 24 months of both your lives. When you are both back together again, it won't be long before you are sure of each other because of your pure maturity. I can say these things because it happened to me, and I know of many others who have experienced the same great thing.

(I need to put on here that apparently this is not a real talk or anything like it is said to be, but I still like what it has to say. I have definitely seen waiting for a missionary happen and work. It has happened with many general authorities and in families I know in my life. So even though this is a "fake" talk, I still enjoy the support it gives. :) )

Change

Mmm I'm not sure how I am feeling today. It has been SO long since I have blogged it's ridiculous!

What all has happened? Well I guess I will just start with the basics! :)

I am getting used to Anthony being around. I have talked to him more about what happened with he and I and honestly it's a lot harder for me to let go then I had wanted it to be. I finally feel like I am going through a break up and it sucks because he and I were broken up over 2 years ago. Finally addressing the situation is honestly (excuse my language but it IS a place :) ) Hell. I feel now, though, with all the prayers and talks and just me yearning for some peace with the matter that I am finally able to overcome this speed bump in my road and continue forward with faith knowing I have made the right decision. I don't regret anything that has happened because it has made me the person I am and I feel like the person I am now is better, more humble, then the person I was. Sometimes God just has to tear you down and keep you there for a while to make you become more humble. It's during this time that we are torn down for repair that we need to keep the faith that the enhancements are coming soon, but they ARE coming.

Not TOO much has happened in this dry spell of no blogging. It's almost 5 months! I need to remember that I don't have 2 years to wait anymore, but I have a year and 7 and a half months. :) That makes me feel like time is actually going by!

I am trying to get into a habit of exercising and eating right. In my yearning for healthiness I have invested in 2 Jillian Micheals work out dvd's which, let me tell you now, make you sore for days! I haven't been that sore since I played basketball in high school. I am also taking a supplement called Vemma. If you haven't heard of it you should look in to it. :) It doesn't taste terrible at all and it's ALL of your daily values of essential vitamins and minerals that we aren't getting through foods anymore. I have a website for it if you want to look up more about it. There are energy drinks and weight loss drinks with it too that have the same Vemma formula in it. SO it's healthy energy drinks! :) I know, hard to believe right? If you are interested in the business portion of it also you can ask me and I will help you with that. :)

Okay enough of my business talk. :)

I'm excited for change. Sometimes change is good. :) I'm excited for college to start and to make new friends and start out in a new place. It shall be fun! So here's to the next year and 7 1/2 months and change! :D

Love, True Love

"Wuv, twoo wuv..." is one of my favorite movie quotes! :) This is the most beautiful love story I have ever seen.

Go grab a box of tissues, it's absolutely adorable. :)

http://www.godvine.com/The-Story-of-Ian-and-Larissa-Shows-Unbelievable-True-Love-1518.html