Wedding Week is Finally Here

WE GET MARRIED ON FRIDAY!

Holy moly I can't believe that this week is finally here. It's like a dream! Bridal showers, bachelor party, school finals and moving out. Can't say this month has been easy but good golly it's gonna be worth it! (Just like the entire two years... :) )

I have to say that now that I am with him all the time it's weird to not be around him or at least talk to him for a long period of time. I am wondering anymore how I was able to let him go for so long, but I am so glad I did and SO glad that's the last time I have to do that for that long!

Wedding plans, oh my gosh! It's fun yet stressful! If anyone out there reading this is planning a wedding you know what I mean! There's so many more details that I didn't think about. We all think about the cake, dress, centerpieces, decorations. Then you have to also count in ring sizing, dress dry cleaning, printing out pictures... it's crazy! Don't forget about those things! They can be hecka expensive!

Our relationship has gotten SO much better! I am much more used to having him around, which makes life easier for the both of us. ;) We have learned to communicate better and how to not make each other mad every other day. It's nice to get along so well and finally feel adjusted to being with each other. It took us a few months, but we finally got the hang of this!

The only thing I really want to emphasize on for those reading this is so much emphasis is given to receptions for the wedding, the details, the dress, the pictures, but one thing that should be emphasized most is why you are getting married. You aren't getting married just for other people or to have a big party. One thing I've learned is you don't get married for yourself. Meaning you get married because you like seeing the other person happy and you want to make that person happy for the rest of eternity. You want to share your life with them. You get married to be sealed to them for eternity, make and keep covenants with our Heavenly Father, and be able to start a family. I had heard before that "I don't need a piece of paper to tell me I'm married or make me committed." I thought about this for such a long time and agreed, it's a commitment you make inside before you put it on paper, therefore why do we need to get married and have it be legal and documented? In a talk from Elder Holland 'Of Souls, Sacraments, and Symbols' he talks about how legally putting down that you are married on paper and in writing makes it THAT much more of a commitment. That you are declaring and making the sealing more final than ever. Leaving evidence and giving yourself wholly to that one person. In this talk he then talks about sex after marriage. I know, if you're still waiting for your missionary this isn't something you really think about, some girls quiver at the word. But this talk will change your perspective of this aspect of marriage. It changed mine and I will never look at it the same. PLEASE listen to this talk if you haven't already. It's worth the whole what? 45 minutes.

Marriage is about making someone else happy, the covenants you make with Heavenly Father and the starting of a family.

... with that said, here goes nothing! :D ;)

Busy Busy Busy

Life has gotten so crazy lately! I mean it! Having Mark home has been a dream come true. Although it's not like a perfect fairy tale in the end it's all been good. Seriously guys waiting for 2 years to see someone and then jumping back into a full blown relationship after not being in a serious one (meaning I couldn't see him for two years) was so hard! I will definitely say it's a lot of tears and heartache because you just want everything to be perfect but you have to really communicate to someone about your own flaws instead of keeping them in. Let me tell you, that was hard! I think it was also difficult for him to realize I'm not exactly like I was when he left, but he has adjusted to the new me and still loves me. :) If you're waiting for someone and reading this I have some advice. Don't expect everything to be perfect. I know, I hated all of these blogs and posts about how terrible life is when the guy you've been waiting so long to comes home and it's definitely not terrible. It's just a change. Change can be good or bad depending on how you take it. As long as you're expecting to just be back into a relationship where there are good times and also bad then you know what to expect. :) I'm not saying everything can't be perfect, I know one couple who has probably never fought their entire relationship! I can't imagine being like that but that's just who they are. That's awesome. :) I am too egotistical haha.... so we have little tifts but nothing that can't be worked out. :)

One thing waiting has done is helped me be patient and goodness am I so grateful for that now! We are getting married in 2 months and 4 days, exactly. Mark has gotten 2 jobs to save up for that and so we can make it by. I am going to school and also have a part time job so lets just say that we are both really busy and rarely get to spend time with each other. I have learned to appreciate those time I have with him, even though he's in the same TOWN as me. It's crazy to think of how far we have come together. I love him a lot and I just want to know how fortunate I am for the rest of my life. :)

Temple Time

I hope some of you out there are reading this... and waiting for me to finally tell you that we are engaged! :) 

The story of how we got engaged? Well we were official on Facebook before we ever had a ring. Heck we are in love and are getting married, who needs a ring?! But he finally did the whole proposal thing again. :) It was so sweet. :) 

He wanted to take me on a temple date that whole week, but he had gotten sick on Monday, the original date of THE date, so we finally went on Friday? I don't remember, is that terrible? Haha it was Friday January 17th. :) Anyways he took me to a nice dinner and then we were going to go to the temple. We just started walking around the temple like we normally do and he walked me to the bench in the far corner of the temple grounds. :) He was talking about everything imaginable! :) He talked a lot about our future together though and at one point started talking about how he hoped I would put up with his imperfections and asked me if I would. I thought he was going to get on one knee right there after I said yes, but he didn't! He just gave me his jacket and we kept on talking about life, families and how we both just fit in to each other's and the future. 

We got up and started walking again. He walked me all the way around then to the front and asked where the Wedding Exit was. I showed him and he was like Oh okay. We stood right there at the exit and he hugged me and gave me a kiss. He grabbed my left hand and pulled me around and tried to spin me into him where we could dance, but his shirt button got caught in my hair... So that ruined that moment haha. :) He and I just laughed and continued to hug. He heard some people coming and so we walked to some benches by a tree. I thought we were going to walk out of the grounds because that's where we were headed but he stopped me and started giving me a hug again. :) He kept on talking about the future and me and him. He then asked me, "Are you ready to make this thing official?" He got down on one knee and pulled the ring out and asked me to be his wife. :) Of course I said yes and then we were engaged. :) All over again. ;) 

Since that was over a month ago I think I should fill everyone in. Wedding planning is going great! It's so crazy how easy and calm I feel about it all. Probably just because I just want to get married, I don't really care about the whole SHABANG of it all. We ARE making it formal and traditional though. :) I am super excited to get married to Mark FINALLY! Life now that he has been home for a little over 2 months has been good. We have had a lot of ups and downs, but mainly ups! :) We are still getting used to actually being around each other, but we have almost finally gotten used to it. :) It was a hard adjustment, him coming home and both of us realizing how each of us have changed, but we have worked out a lot of things since he has been home. :) Life is good. :) I am just so excited to start the next part of my life. :) We have been together for a little over 3 and a half years and I am just so excited to be married to my best friend. :) May 9th, 2014 couldn't come fast enough!